outback to jungle

Musings on experiences of volunteering in Papua New Guinea with some gratuitous domestic social and public comment

Thursday, July 20, 2006

learning from other blogs

I stumbled across this blog which is linked (I think) to one of my links but which one I forget, and I thought, yair, this is good - this is how I would like to be able to blog. It is getting into the subject in a way that my subject is afraid to delve. "I blame him 95%. Well, that's what I said in the moment. I am to blame, too. For flip-flopping. For trying too hard. For not giving up when the signs were there. This is all part of the process, but it doesn't mean that I have to like it. For now. I will be back. I just have to wait for that constriction in my chest to go away. If feelings could all just be in my head, I think life would be easier. But I hate that feelings manifest themselves in physical symptoms. Butterflies in the stomach that make you feel giddy. A tightness in the chest that feels like your heart constricting around an empty space. That same constriction welling up in the back of your throat to make you feel like you want to vomit. Oh, feelings are so pleasant. Yeah, sometimes I do wish I were dead inside. [End wallowing.]" ref: http://aspiringexpat.blogspot.com
How can I explain? Subject centred v object-experiential centred? But who wants to read my subject? On the other hand, what is an object for you I do not see at all.

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